Carolyn hits her breaking point May 21, 2008
Well, we’ve been working on our house for a while now. But this past month Dan and I have really stepped it up a notch or two. We’ve been working on fixing the new house and fixing up the old house nearly every single day. And today it has finally caught up with me. I’m feeling like I can’t take one more minute of it all. I’m not usually feeling so down in the dumps, especially on such a sunny beautiful day. But I’m just tired of it all. I’m tired of painting, cleaning, packing, showing our house, not finding a renter, tired of Dan being gone all the time working on the new house… All this on top of the regular stuff like laundry, dishes, cleaning, school, and church responsibilities. And let’s not forget that I’m also 16 weeks pregnant too. It doesn’t help that I’m all hormonal. Though I am feeling pretty good physically for this stage of pregnancy, I have been working unusually hard the past month, especially in regards to painting. I have worked muscles in my shoulders that I didn’t even know I had!
I admit it, I’m feeling really discouraged. I don’t know how we’re going to get it all done. Even if Dan and I do manage to get all the work done that we need to, pack and move, how are we going to do all this with out have nervous break downs?! I’m already about to reach my limits. I’m sure Dan is really suffering too, though he hasn’t been complaining about it like me. Pregnant women are really good at complaining!
I wish the winning lottery ticket would fly in my window. No, money doesn’t fix all problems. But in this case, if we had some extra money we could pay someone else to finish our house for us so we could just focus on the packing and moving part. Wish me luck on that one happening. Dan and I entered a local radio contest and every morning they call out someone’s name and that person calls in and they win 1000 dollars. And on Thursdays they call out a new name every hour for most of the day. I know it’s totally silly and we’ll never win, but I tune in every morning to hear the name they call. As cool as it would be to win, 1000 dollars would only put a tiny dent in what we need to finish our house. Blah! Our house will be awesome and I’m so excited to be able to even have such a nice house one day. But dang it, we’re going to have to really work hard to get it. No one can say we didn’t have to slave away to get this house. Cuz we really did. And still are.
When my wife does something outstanding (like going swimming) she likes to hear lots of “atta girls”, acknowledgin her accomplishments. So let me send you a dozen or so “atta girls” for all you have done, and are still doing. As Pres. Hinckley used to say “things will work out”. I’m sure the new house will be wonderful. Wish we were closer so we could help.
Dad G.
I feel just awful that I am not there to help. Guilt. Guilt. Guilt.
Please know that we pray for you daily. I hope tomorrow will be a better day. I also hope that some kind members of your ward will come help out.
Love you tons!!!
I was going to IM you with this, but you aren’t signed in, so I will just leave a comment.
You probably won’t believe this, but about 3 weeks or so, I began to have an idea because of your birthday (although we don’t do gifts), the stress of moving, of fixing up your house, pregnancy, etc. I know I talked to Dan about it the last 2 sundays.
So, a SUPRISE is heading your way about 5:30pm. enjoy. and just think happy thoughts until it gets there. Anticipation is fun, too.
Love and prayers have been coming your way for a long time.
Sounds like it’s time to make your visiting and home teachers feel useful! Call them up and tell them they can have three guilt-free months of not visiting you if they will come help with one of your houses for three hours. You never know, they might just jump at the chance. Or call the missionaries and see if they need some service hours. I did that once when we were moving–called the sisters and they were glad to come help clean and did a great job. And sometimes you just have to stop, let it all go, and take care of yourself for a few hours. It won’t make the work go away, but it might help you face it all again later. Hang in there!
Our home teachers? Maybe they can make up for the last 3 I mean 6 I mean 12 months that they haven’t visited us?!?!? :-D. Though to be fair to them we may not have been assigned for awhile and gotten new HTs or whatever. We definitely have not been visited since the wards split in January.
Carolyn’s VTs have been very helpful and come over a few times and also brought us some dinners.
But the missionary idea is a good one - I’ll have to talk to them.