Warning: Hormonal pregnant woman talking about her feelings

Have you ever had one of those days where it seems like the whole world is out to get you? And it feels like the whole world hates you and you hate the world right back? Yeah, well I'm having one of those days. It's impossible to explain to men what it feels like to be controlled by pregnancy hormones. Dan listens to me while I try to explain and he's a really good listener. But it's not something he has ever felt or ever will feel so no man can fully understand. It's like I'm a different person. I feel like I'm out of control of my emotions and how I react to them. And it's very annoying. I don't like crying at the drop of a hat at any old dumb thing. I don't like how quickly I get angry and snap at people. Heaven help my poor husband when I go through menopause...I might be insane by then!

There's something about being pregnant that makes me feel really uncool. I guess being cool isn't the best thing there is in the world. But I like to feel like I'm somewhat with it. It's hard to be very cool when you have 4 little kids hanging on you. And it's twice as hard to feel cool when you have 4 little kids hanging on you and you're pregnant with your fifth. I just feel old, frumpy and really not cool.

I won't go into all the other details about why I'm feeling so down in the dumps today. People do actually read this, so I have to be careful what I say. I just hate feeling this way.

And I don't feel like going to church today!!! I have to go face all those people! Ugh. I just hope no one makes me cry at church today. I just can't take that.